| | Alrighties. Mother came in Saturday morning where I was still sleeping because I couldn't sleep that night. Only managed to sleep about 8 in the morning and I really had like no energy to get up to clean the church. But the sleep didn't last long and I was in a semi-zombified state. After my mother came back from lunch with my sister, she immediately talked to me about what my situation is. At first I had the impression of a question and answer session but it quickly took a right turn into lecture mode. Then, whenever she askes a question and I was about to answer, she went on because it was a rhetorical question. Some questions that I thought were rhetorical were not and was waiting for an answer for awhile. Given my zombified mind, I'm not sure that I'm not reading the context of the questions properly or that really she is a champion in turning questions into rhetoric ones and vice versa. But her words were very divisive on my current situation. It's sort of like the words of Jesus except with far less consequences on your soul. She made it clear that there is no middle ground for something like this and I'm forced to choose one or the other. Given the time frame I'm in and on speculative hindsight analysis, I am quite incline to choose the other. She also sort of made it clear that she doesn't want me back home if everything fails which was strange. So, as it went for long lengths of time, I give a sub-10 word answer followed by a half an hour lecture from my mother. 2 hours went by before she had to go and meet her friend and stay over at her place. There was this battle inside of me of what to do next and it was so fierce that it appeared to feel like time had slowed down to a snail's pace. And then, something happened...
I somehow decided to check up on some of the other faculties in the uni to see if I have an out option which I doubted there was. But lo and behold, there was a night session on masters courses and they are accepting applications on that night as well and it's something that would give me another chance at a PR. How do you interpret such events given a history like mine and current circumstances? Do you see that as opportunity or is it all wishful thinking? Some people might even go as far as saying "That is a sign for you to get out" but I've always been skeptical about such comments due to the abusive nature of such words and first hand application in my family. Having said that, it has been percolating in my head for awhile and I'm inclined to accept such a comment. So what do you think? Carpe Diem or Persevere?
On a different note, I nearly fell off my bed after I just found out that, not only has a friend of mine gotten married but also just gave birth. She has never said much about her life and this was like a bomb. That was 5 seconds of initial shock I'll never see again. 2009 really is a year of marriage/married related events. Also I just got a lovely wedding invitation card from Sean to his wedding and I would L.O.V.E to go but it is in Singapore and it's in September  Why Sean, why?? How can you do this to me? =P
Here's something to think about: according to a survey, half of all friends are replaced every 7 years. 7 years! One might think it's a long time but given how things are moving at warp speed, it's like a heartbeat. Which after a while of thinking, is sort of about right. We grow up forming our first fond memories in sandbox in the play ground right up to about after kindergarten. That's seven years gone. Going into primary school, we might see quite a large number of our kindergarten friends back in the same school or even class but we formed new ones in the process. Fast forward to the beginnings of high school, another 6-7 years gone and we might see the old primary school friends back in the same school but we formed new ones as well and losing others. And the process repeats with college/uni and then work place and so on. There are other factors involved but that's pretty much the main idea. Friends really come and go in a blink of an eye and for some, that's all it takes to influence someone's life. For us Christians, it gives us a rough idea on how long we might spend our time with each other before they disappear from our friend network, on how to preach and teach the gospel to others. Interesting.
Eye opening on food sizes
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